I'm a firm believer that every once in a while you need to get scared. Not scared as in my-life-is-in-danger scared. But gee-I've-never-done-this-before scared. It's a different kind of scared and a pretty useful one for me.
I can count on my hands the number of times I've scared myself only to find that it's improved me in some way or another. I almost didn't get on the plane to Poland to meet up with a guy who I knew for three weeks six years earlier. I was beyond scared. What if he wasn't there? What if he was really a serial killer? I had no idea what to expect. It was an amazing trip. I would've missed it all had I not gotten on the airplane.
I was scared to move to Maryland knowing no one. I knew I didn't want to live in Lansdale the rest of my life but I didn't know what I wanted to do. I moved with the idea I would be here for three months. That was 19 years ago. Even after I was married and had children I thought I'd move home. When my marriage was over my first thought was to move home. I'm glad I didn't. It's been a long road but Silver Spring is finally my home.
I'm doing it again. I'm going to Geneva with my boyfriend for TWO WHOLE WEEKS! I am excited but scared. I haven't gone anywhere without my family in 12 years. I'm going to be away from my kids for 4 weeks! I'm beyond stressed.
But it will be fun. I will see things I can't even imagine. It will be fun. The butterflies bustling in my tummy will go away. Hopefully.
It's good to be scared once in a while. Right?