It's a new year....again.
I've taken nearly a year off from writing. Well, that's not entirely true. I continued to write occasionally. I just didn't publish anything. It all seemed angry. I write this for several reasons but among them is the idea that if I were to suddenly die (not hoping for that), my kids would have something to look back on that tells them something about me. I don't have much of that from my dad so I want them to have that for me. Hopefully I'll live a long life and they won't need to read this to know who I am but in the event that isn't in the cards, there's this and I didn't want it to be angry.
Lots happened last year. I am raising two 15 year old girls. They have presented challenges that I never imagined. I think this is the hardest year so far. There are lots of positive things but the moods, the language, the drama is overwhelming sometimes.
My mother is still alive. I think that's a good thing, but I'm not sure she does. I took a temporary job scheduling for an interpreting agency for the last three months which was overwhelming so I feel like I neglected her. That's not a good feeling.
My house is still a shit hole. But now I'll have some time to get the things done I wanted to get done.
I hate New Years resolutions. But I make them. Among the ones I've made in the past and never accomplished:
1. To stop swearing. (Fuck that. I give up.)
2. To get more organized (A girl can hope.)
3. To get financially set (I'm better than I was.)
Things I did accomplish:
1. I eat better. I eat vegetables a lot. And for me, I mean A LOT.
2. I take time for me. I go to weight watchers every week, no excuses. I take a jewelry class (but I still feel guilty about it). I don't alter that schedule. I have 4 hours every week (3 for class and 1 for ww) that are all about me. I like this.
3. I love a lot. I think my children, my mother, my partner and my friends know how much I love them. I try to make sure of that.
4. I laugh a lot. I have a lot of fun.
5. I can't think of a 5th thing but I'm sure I accomplished something else....
This year's goals:
1. To enjoy the time I have with my girls. I'm well aware it will be over quickly. College is already on their minds.
2. To spend better time with my mom. Instead of worrying about how much time I spend with her (which is still a concern), I want to make sure we do something she enjoys with that time. I don't want to look back with regret.
3. I will never be organized like Martha Stewart organized. But I can reduce the amount of paper that stays in the house.
4. I'm already eating healthier. I'm down nearly 40 pounds from this time last year. But I need to really stop the flour/sugar cycle. I feel better when I do that. I just like bread and pasta.....
5. I want to go somewhere every three months. It could be a weekend away in a car or a bit longer by plane. I feel like my life is passing me by and I'm still stuck here.
So those are the goals for the year. No resolutions. Oh, and maybe I'll write more.
Lots happened last year. I am raising two 15 year old girls. They have presented challenges that I never imagined. I think this is the hardest year so far. There are lots of positive things but the moods, the language, the drama is overwhelming sometimes.
My mother is still alive. I think that's a good thing, but I'm not sure she does. I took a temporary job scheduling for an interpreting agency for the last three months which was overwhelming so I feel like I neglected her. That's not a good feeling.
My house is still a shit hole. But now I'll have some time to get the things done I wanted to get done.
I hate New Years resolutions. But I make them. Among the ones I've made in the past and never accomplished:
1. To stop swearing. (Fuck that. I give up.)
2. To get more organized (A girl can hope.)
3. To get financially set (I'm better than I was.)
Things I did accomplish:
1. I eat better. I eat vegetables a lot. And for me, I mean A LOT.
2. I take time for me. I go to weight watchers every week, no excuses. I take a jewelry class (but I still feel guilty about it). I don't alter that schedule. I have 4 hours every week (3 for class and 1 for ww) that are all about me. I like this.
3. I love a lot. I think my children, my mother, my partner and my friends know how much I love them. I try to make sure of that.
4. I laugh a lot. I have a lot of fun.
5. I can't think of a 5th thing but I'm sure I accomplished something else....
This year's goals:
1. To enjoy the time I have with my girls. I'm well aware it will be over quickly. College is already on their minds.
2. To spend better time with my mom. Instead of worrying about how much time I spend with her (which is still a concern), I want to make sure we do something she enjoys with that time. I don't want to look back with regret.
3. I will never be organized like Martha Stewart organized. But I can reduce the amount of paper that stays in the house.
4. I'm already eating healthier. I'm down nearly 40 pounds from this time last year. But I need to really stop the flour/sugar cycle. I feel better when I do that. I just like bread and pasta.....
5. I want to go somewhere every three months. It could be a weekend away in a car or a bit longer by plane. I feel like my life is passing me by and I'm still stuck here.
So those are the goals for the year. No resolutions. Oh, and maybe I'll write more.
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